this is it?

when i was eating my pizza, i decided to look through the pictures in my camera. right when i pressed the 'view' button, the pictures of me and my classmates at our class party appeared. i look back at all the photos. there's a photo of me and a few of us with teacher siti noor. there's also a photo of you guys dancing to the 'ayer' song. i laughed at myself while browsing through the photos. suddenly it comes to me, is this the ending? this is it? then i realized, this is our last meeting, our last gathering. there will be no more 3 Sejahtera after this.

i cant imagine how bad im going to miss you guys. i miss being the second girl that come to school early *because the first one have always been adilah. haha* i miss the two girls that have been accompanying me throughout the year. i miss syahidah with her common 'job' blabbing out the juiciest gossip ever. i miss ariffah bringing her bekal to school and say to me, 'ambik lah'. i miss the girls around me. i miss anis. i miss doodling with her where im the one who bring the crayons and she's the one who borrows it. always:) i miss dine who always laugh overly over small matter. i miss tina with her daily routine 'cerita-ing' to me about her starling. i miss meera who cant get over with ayam. i miss ain and dee. they're the sunshine of the class. hearing dee's super loud sneeze had become something common to us. i cant believe im not going to hear that any longer.

i miss the guys too. i miss dakshan who always find an opportunity to talk to amal(; i miss kaif and jerrick, the mentor and the protege. haha. i miss fahim and his clan cracking out the stupidest jokes i've ever heard. i miss syazwan, the kepeng one. haha. i miss aizuddin's gang too. not to forget. i miss those chinese guys. i miss hearing their laugh and shout when they play poker together. i miss aiman who seems to talk non-stoply. i miss ghavi going around the girls' table and keluarkan all of the stuff in my pencil case and atur them on my table. i wonder why he do that for? haha.

i miss sitting on the stage, i miss standing and staring people at the balcony. i miss 3 Sejahtera. although next year some of us will stay in the same class, but it wont be the same 3 Sejahtera anymore. sometimes i wish this year will never end:)

day out and missingness

today is so tiring. i went to midvalley megamall today with my cousin. since we're a bit different from the rest, we also shop for different kind of things. and, can you imagine, both of us sanggup ke midvalley megamall just to find a phone strap? haha. i know i know. we went to mph to satisfy our craving for boooks. and, i was so stunned when i went into teen fiction part. theres a lot *capital A L O T* of books that is totally my kind of books. i was picking that one and this one. but then, i have to put the books back to its original place as the money in my wallet tak mengizinkan. then, i thought maybe i could just aim the books that i wanted then drag my mum and dad to mph to buy it for me. haha:DD the gift, haters, crazy in love and angus, thongs and perfect snogging are on top of the list baby. hee. i dont care if my mum will hate me for a week as long as i get those books. at least theres something else i can do besides eating:) and, i totally felt her absence today. i reallyreallyreally miss her. ugh. thoughts of we both talking and laughing our heads off are playing on the back off my mind. only now i realized that we've been spending too much time apart. i thought it wasn't even possible. with me going back to kampung this friday, i dont know when i'll be seeing you. i want you to know nan, i really do miss you:(

*oh and, i love you nan:D haha.

school holidays = ultimate boredom

i bet almost everyone agreed with the title right? i realized, during this school holiday, i only do three major things everyday which is eat, sleep and watching korean soap operas. so, i've decided to create an account here. just to let everyone know what im doing everyday. oh, not to mention all of my melancong plans been cancelled and i have to balik kampung to take care of my grandpa. the balik kampung thingy is okay, its just the matter of timing. some of my aunty forced me to go there fast. and, it'll ganggu my outing schedule. susah betul nak puaskan hati ramai orang kan? haish. so basically, i dont know really when i'll balik kampung. and, i've been missing my life partner so much. damn. without her, semua benda macam tak complete oh. i wish we could spend some time together. there's a lot to tell.

*nan sofiah, i miss you:(