fear, go away

RANIDAPHOBIA

COULROPHOBIA

yes. you're unfortunate friend over here is actually having those phobias. wonder what they is? pergi wikipedia for more information. but hey, i don't suffer those phobias to the extended stage. and, i don't really enjoy receiving any sinister jokes or surprise regarding those two. seriously. i can give out an abnormally freaky reflex action.


i remembered once there's my neighbour who knew it by heart that i'm having a ghast fear of frogs(there i said it already) put one of that creature in my shoe and when i was about to wear it, it hopped out of my shoe and i was jumping away and screaming like i just saw an accident right in front of my eye(!) yes i did. and as a result, i didn't go out and play outside for two weeks. i just stayed inside my house and i also got really, i mean it, REALLY afraid to go to ANY playground. since that creature is as green as the grass. and thats also the reason why i don't wear sneakers that much NOW.

coulrophobic. i'm one of it. bother to know my most unforgettable experience i had, thus making me realized that i'm having this phobia? continue reading. chehh. haha. i went to my friend's birthday party and as you know, birthdays are synonym to clowns. there. right when i wanted to give the present i bought to ze birthday boy, i saw that person, in a terribly polka dotted overall. with smeared make up and, you know how exactly clown dressed right? i can't elaborate. though i know it was just a normal human being under that hideous apparel, i can't seem to think that way at that critical moment. so, being an 8 years old coulrophobic kiddo, i managed to run away from ze birthday party. here's the climax, afraid that the clown might chase after me, i stopped a car and asked for a ride home. from a stranger. yes. unbelievable. see, now you know how a phobic would act. thank god that aunty was kind enough and sent me home safe and sound. all i remember i just told the aunty that my house is at jalan H2 and why i wanted to go home. after that very terrifying incident, my mum's official favoured line is, 'don't talk to stranger'. haha.

that's all for now, from your freako mate:)

i just don't give a damn

nothing special happened today. it's a usual, keep-on-repeating thursday. school is just the same. same faces, same routine, same tonnes of homework, same speeches and even same lame old jokes. today i'm a little bit pissed with this so called class clown. you think your jokes mean nothing to others, but hey i guess it's time for you to realize others feeling though. sometimes life are better off without your lousy, heart-hurting jokes.

enough about the cold joker. today, we were instructed to create a brochure about saving the water. that's the title i guess. haha. seperti biasa, liyy, shahira, tiqa and me team up and carry on with the brochure thing. it was fun. except for tiqa keep on joining whatever we says with lyrics from songs i haven't heard of. and not to forget, mubyn and the clan, or should i say arjun and the clan had their time singing to this unaudible song.

did i tell you that we're having our MID YEAR EXAM in like another two or more weeks?

oh god, help me prepare. it's not going to be easy this time around. it never been, i think?

thursday is the results day. i can't help myself looking at the clock every half an hour and wonder why time passes by so slowly. can't the clock needle just point to 6 o'clock so that i can tune in to 711 and get to know that my Matt is save? aihh. stilll about american idol, i realized in my class, i can only talk to aiman about american idol. how pathetic is that? aahh. this makes me miss 3S more:( i knew anis, adilah && ain watch american idol too. would be nice if i can chat about this with them.

still, tomorrow is just the same plain ol' thursday. and for the first time i really hope that i would never see your face again jester.

a video that will definitely help bring us back to the backstreet boys era:)

Backstreet Boys - Everybody (Backstreet's Back) (Official Music Video) - The best bloopers are here

time can't erase this feeling

hari ni skip sekolah. hee. petang nanti nak pergi bookfair dgn tiqa and liyy. bila dah skip sekolah tak tau pulak apa nak buat. i think i'm going to watch fullhouse je. hehe. taktaulah apa nak tulis-_-' aha. let me tell you my results for march test. *which i suck. bigtime*

• b melayu 74%
• english 98%
• mathematics 68%
• agama 92%
• sejarah 85%
• biology 82%
• physics 57%
• chemistry 70%
• addmath 50%
• tasawwur 84%

hah. ni baru march test. mid term nanti tataulah apa jadi. aiyo. apa lagi nak blog eh? tade dah kot. hehe.

AI Updates
My boy was out! yeap. Matt Giraud was eliminated. aihh. ape ni american? do your work lah. vote for him. aduii. but thank god, he was saved by the power that the juries have. this prove that he do have the talent to stay. though what Simon said is true. (the fact that Matt doesn't stand a chance to win) still, there's gonna be two idols going home tomorrow. definitely, positively gonna be Anoop and Lil Rounds.
****ps/ tak suka Kara :b

title tade kena mengena. haha:DD

falling

There's nothing I could say to you
Nothing I could ever do to make you see
What you mean to me

All the pain, the tears I cried
Still you never said goodbye and now I know
How far you'd go

I know I let you down
But it's not like that now
This time I’ll never let you go

I will be, all that you want
And get myself together
Coz you keep me from falling apart

All my life, I’ll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay

I thought that I had everything
I didn’t know what life could bring
But now I see, honestly

You're the one thing I got right
The only one I let inside
Now I can breathe, coz you're here with me

And if I let you down
I'll turn it all around
Coz I will never let you go

I will be, all that you want
And get myself together
Coz you keep me from falling apart

All my life, I’ll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay

Coz without you I can't sleep
I'm not gonna ever, ever let you leave
You're all I’ve got, you’re all I want

And without you I don’t know what I’d do
I can never, ever live a day without you
Here with me, do you see,
You're all I need

numb

second chance is what i'm asking for.
this time around, i just don't care what others will say.
everything i tried after we're not together was just a failure.
it's me being dumb not seeing you is always there for me.
sometimes i wonder, will you take me back?
because i've let you down so many many times.
will you still have the same feeling for me,
as you did once ago?
from the day we set our own paths,
i've spent my time distracting myself from you,
trying hard to forget you,
believing that i am over you,
but the truth is, none of it worked.
so tell me, what the hell should i do now.
ignore this feelings?
i don't think that will work either.

what a day

guess luck is not on our side. Pandu Puteri didn't manage to get any place in kawad kaki daerah. why? because we're from Melawati. when it's melawati, it's like merely possible to win anything. the judges don't even bother to invite us for the ketua platun and urusetia meeting. at the end of the day, they gave us penalty for 'doesn't make sense' reason. and, we lose. that's what they want anyway. they know it by heart that Melawati's kawad team is strong enough to beat the others. and they prefer winning it the dirty way.

AI updates ;
this week's favourite idol is of course, Kris Allen. Matt dissapoint me. so does Alisson. Adam Lambert's screaming is getting on my nerve. over sgt kadang kadang.haha. Lil Rounds makin lama makin tak best. wonder who's going home this week.



anyways, do visit my photostream at flickr ;

http://www.flickr.com/photos/jazrinapunyaphotos/

but still under consruction lagi lah yee. to cousin cousin sekalian, there's a lot of your photos there. grablah kalau nak:)