you never cared anyway

YOU.
i hate to talk about this. it's always the same old issue with you. you always think you're right. you never bother to ask me what's wrong, all you do is point at my fault and nag. i don't really care about the nagging anyway, it's your habit. no one can deny that.

another thing, i hate it when you don't give a response to what i'm saying. I JUST HATE THE LOOK YOU HAVE ON YOUR FACE WHEN YOU'RE TURNING AWAY WHEN I'M TALKING TO YOU. when i don't respond, it's rude, but if you're doing it it's all okay. is it fair? well, why don't you do the thinking?

you know what, i'll be really grateful if i ever have a chance to spend a moment with you, have a heart-to-heart talk. where you just listen and consider. don't mind all the tears that'll be rolling down my cheeks. just let me finish pouring out what i've been keeping inside. only then you tell me what's right or wrong. i'm just a normal human being. i make mistakes. and of course i do know how to behave and respect others. but i also have my own feelings. have you ever think of taking care of it? you always say, what you always want is a mutual relationship between us. well, from what i see, you're the one not doing the part.

I understand that there are some problems
And I am not too blind to know
All the pain you kept inside you
Even though you might not show
If I can't apologize for being wrong
Then it's just a shame on me
I'll be the reason for your pain
And you can put the blame on me

school holiday is such a bore but i dont wanna go to school either

what to do during school hols :

1. eat eat eat :D
2. watch korean dramas. what else? ^_^
3. homeworks / study?
4. pointless addmath project -___-
5. Big Bang myself everyday. what more can i do? they're korean most swoon-worthy boyband :DD
6. hang out with my cousins.
7. work out! chehh. haha. anything for Yoona's bod and legs ;p
8. learn hangeul.

so there's this boy, he actually asked me to write about him at my blog. i dont really know what to write about him but all i know is his funny attitude makes him someone's fun to be around with. oh and, he was born a day before me. haha.there you go Shawn? happy now? haha :D

love,

can't wait for it to be mine. hehehe. sabar. just a few days left :)

blah blah blah

the only Girls Generation song i can relate to.

Echo, echo
(Echo, echo) What kind of man are you?!
You keep thinking that all girls belongs to you! (Echo-oh~, echo-oh~)

I’ve never met a person like you
You make my heart flutter
But all you do is think about the other girls
I can see it all with my eyes.

Thinking that all girls belongs to you.
Assuming that everyone will like you.
The people who are around are oblivious.
Here and there, you sweet words,

Echo, echo, echo, echo
Your voice keeps bothering me like an
Echo, echo, echo in my mind
I tried so hard to block it but it’s like an
Echo, echo, echo, echo
It wasn’t meant for me so why am I acting like an idiot and it’s like an
Echo, echo, echo in my brain
It sounds as if you’re talking to me, now I’m starting to like you!

It’s a crime to be clueless.
No matter how much I shout in my mind,
You can’t hear it because it’s part of the penalty.
But it’s not that easy to give up either.

You start your game once you leave home.
Girls who’re passing by are so fine.
Once they are hooked, you put your moves on
Here and there, your sweet words

If you wish for the best of us then throw your hands up!
(Throw your hands up!)
If you think you can treat me better than he did then throw your hands up!
(Throw your hands up!)

Echo, echo, echo, echo!
Your voice keeps bothering me!
Echo, echo, echo, echo!
Hey you womanizer, try to be nice to me too!
Echo, echo, echo, echo (my love~)
Echo-oh, echo-oh (my love~)

too much of anything can make you sick.
i guess i wanted you so much and now it hurts to know that
you're looking in another direction,
so after this, let's just pass by each other without looking straight in the eyes,
without saying anything.
pretend like we don't know each other.
i know it will be better off that way.

i want legs like that. aja aja hwaiting jaz! :D

sakit kepala

plans for today :
*the one i made the night before

• kemas bilik
• update blog
• update psp
• update twitter
• tengok true blood
• exercise guna gintell's magnetic bike yang baru beli. hehe :D
• buat homework? haha.

things i did today :

• download k-pop videos
• download gambar gambar GDRAGON. haha :D
• update blog
• pergi rumah orang kahwin -_-
• exercise on the new magnetic bike.

hahaha. teruknya perangai. lately ni semangat exercise guna magnetic bike tu. sampai mama pun tanya, 'rajin awak exercise sampai setengah jam'. my answer was simple, 'nak kaki macam girls' generation' hahahahah :DD

hello loner boy :)

you stole my gaze right away,

you're something i would call attraction at the first sight. i cant stop myself from looking at you. i know it from the first place, you have that something so interesting in you. or else, my gaze wont be locked on you that whole evening :)

my heart is filled with you

omona,

okay, this is insane. i dont know why i'm super excited everytime i talk about you. i admit most of the times girls expect the first move from guys. but with you, i figured that i should start things first. it's cool with me, i mean, it's not wrong for girls to start a conversation right? but when you responded, it turns my world upside down. in a good way, of course. it's just a simple 'hye' yet, the impact are sooooo huge. i bet you must have heard me screaming just now. ask my friends, yes, i giggled, jumped until my cheeks turned red. the question now is, how am i gonna face you soon? this is so embarassing. but somehow, i kinda wait to bump on you at school. i am fully aware that you have tonnes of admirers and from what i see and what i heard, you never seem to care about your fangirls. i dont know if it's a good sign or not. i am also sure that all of my friends are now tired of hearing stories about you and truth is, i cant stop talking about you because i just cant stop thinking about you :)

*just in case you're wondering, 'omona' is 'oh my god' in korean :D

ajikto norul wonhae :D

i want you now. the title, i mean.

oh hello, twenty-ten!

is it too late? i dont think so. unbelievably, this is my first post for 2010. and it's already February! how fast time flies. and during one month and 11 days period of time, too much things been happening in my world.

first,
i miss NAN SOFIAH. she wont read this anyway. but still, i miss her. sampai dah taktahu nak describe banyak mana. yeah memang lah ada kawan sekolah semua, but it's not the same. not at all. i wish i can fix this but i never come up with any solution. how i hate being in this situation :'(

second,
my love life sucks. it got me to a point where i dont wanna care about it anymore. the recent guy i spent time with was just foolishly immature, so yeah thanks to him, i dont even have the interest to be in love again. but it's okay. karma wont let him go anyway. sorry lah, but kalau still tak sedar lagi, that why you still dont have a girlf until now. it's not me, it's you. no offense.

third,
i cant believe im saying this, but the fact is, day by day, i AM becoming a loner. yeah i dont need you to tell me how pathetic it is. i knew it already. seriously, sometimes it's fun to be a loner. far from all the people with extremely loud hysterical laugh -which at times tak sedar betapa disturbing nya their laugh are-, far from all the people that care about their appearence. i mean come on, it's just a freakin school. melawati pulak tu. kalau sekolah McKinley High macam dalam Glee tu takpe lah jugak. capital P-F-F-T.

fourth,
i noticed, besides Shey, Tiqi, and Liyy, lately i've been spending a lot, i repeat, A LOT of my insufficient time with Rahman Jamal. yeah, yang budak choir tu lahh. haha. he's cool. okay tak nak puji lebih lebih. but hey at least he listen to all of my problems. though sometimes he doesnt offer a good solution, but thats not what i asked for. being a loyal listener is good enough, Man. and thats what you're doing now. thanks yeah. cant imagine going through a hectic melawati life without you best friend. lima minit pun tak boleh. tak payah bet bet, okay? haha :D

fifth,
okay let's talk about the title of this post now. hehe. i found myself a guy to shout, jump and giggle over whenever he pass by me. i remembered when i used to complain to Rahman and Fitri that there is no new guy to 'usha' anymore. but now dah jumpa. and he's kinda new to melawati what. hee :DD and to top things off, we have that common interest. i never thought that i could find a guy that can talk to me about the same thing we both go crazy for. except Rahman and Mubyn, of course. Oh! Oh! Oh! Oh! Opparul saranghae. hehehe. takpasal je. okay Jaz, cut the crap. yeah, i know that i said before that i am not interested to be in love. memang takde chance pun dengan this guy anyway. so yeah, why bother? :l

sixth,
being a form five = endless homeworks, exams, tuition classes, extra classes and seminars and the most beloved SPM. for the love of Big Bang and G Dragon, homework sumpah banyak gila. and i AM NOT EXAGGERATING. can you believe that? like hello teachers, we're juggling 10 subjects here. t-e-n okay. gahh. tak kesah lah nak bagi homework, tapi jangan lah banyak sangat. aigoo. i am not complaining. just want to have a short, short, short break from all school-related things. really looking forward for the upcoming holiday. bila fikir balik, 24 hours does sounds a lot. tapi TAK CUKUP LAH :O i think i'm doing my homework even in my sleep. haha. okay itu tak lah. tipu je. hee.

seventh,
i dont think i'll be updating my blog in this short period of time. though i really wanted to. same goes with my facebook. online pun dah jarang, update lagi lah. heh. and youtube. oh youtube, i am trying my level best no to visit you frequently. so addictive lah. aigoo. especially bila the search column is filled with letters B-i-g-B-a-n-g. haha. memang dah tak boleh lepaskan mouse dah. yeah i know, dah critical dah addiction ni. so, to those yang rajin membaca post ni, take care yeah. this is what happens to me when i'm out of words. live a blessed life people :D